My irrational infatuation with Castro Guy is now over, I think. I haven’t seen him in a while so I concluded he was abducted by aliens and eaten in the form of a Castro burger buffet.

Anyway, that was like the second fastest time I’ve taken to lose interest in a guy. But I’m always in a similar situation, where I can’t just keep myself interested in a person. My problem is that I can’t really tell the difference between when I casually like a guy, from when I seriously like a guy. It always feels like it is serious and most of the time it turns out that it’s not.

I’m usually very forward and unconsciously flirty with a guy when I like him even a teeny tiny bit. Then I get spontaneously bored of him or become randomly interested in someone else. In my most recent case, I didn’t get bored of Castro Guy. I just got interested in another guy I know from uni.

Apparently this guy noticed my interest quickly, because he is already being very friendly. And I like it. I like how it feels to have his attention, to have him call every night “just to talk”. I like it when he plays with my hair, when he holds my hand for no reason and waits a couple of seconds before letting it go. I like it when he reminds me how we met a year ago and I how treated him like shit. I like it how he’s so geeky that he looks like he’s going to die of geekery and then calls me a geek. Oh, and I love when he says that I’m always right, LOL.

So far it’s all good. I like him. He seems to be responding. Now, how do I know I’m going to still like him in a month? I’m scared of waking up one day wanting to marry the guy who sits behind me in Physics (whose name I don’t even know), or that other weird guy I see every morning reading a huge neurobiology book at the train station.

I think I just have to wait and see. But if anyone wants to suggest something, please do so. Heh. Have you ever seen yourself in a similar situation? How do you handle it?